Spiritual awakening is a concept that I explain as a crack in the structure of the personality. It is a glimpse into the Totality or Wholeness that is our essential nature behind the appearance of separation.
Many people imagine spiritual awakening to magically eliminate all afflicting patterns and behavior overnight, but it doesn’t happen that way. What it does is that it cracks this facade that was formed as a result of false conditioning (I am this or that). With crack comes momentary relief, but the mind (which is a part of that structure) is still conditioned in the old ways.
It is natural to experience dissonance between What-Is and What-Should-Or-Should-Not-Be, and also between who I am and who I should or should not be. Who I am is the glimpse or the Wholeness; however, the fragmented mind still questions and chases fulfillment externally. Therefore, it is natural to lose motivation to work or do anything about “your” life situation. The mind chases to re-experience the glimpse in a bid to feel relieved. But this is a trap.
Slowly, the illusion of solidness or stickiness of the separate self is seen (impersonally). It is seen that the “self” cannot do anything to experience happiness and peace. It is there only to facilitate daily living operations and interactions. Beyond that, it is not.
With the motivation gone, one stops investing any further in this sense of illusion of separation. The knowledge of one’s essential nature deepens as a result.
With love,
Jagjot
